|The Perfect Family (Cast from "Leave it to Beaver")|
When I was going through my parents' Christmas ornaments, I found copies of probably a dozen Christmas letters my parents had composed and sent to those same 100's of friends, recounting the events and accomplishments of our family during the previous year. Which gave me pause......I know there were many, well, maybe not many, but a number of years when I am sure it was a challenge to find shining examples of things that each of us children had done. And yet, reading through them, we sounded pretty okay.
I've written Christmas letters myself, not so much recently, but in the past. And I know that I have picked words carefully, shared the highlights and worn that mask of the perfect family.
|The Pretty Okay Family (The Wolves, circa 1965)|
This challenge has been one of the most difficult for me to talk about. I initially was completely blank on what to do. What masks do I wear, what masks have I worn? Who sees the mask? Is it me, or someone else? Do I put masks on other people.....ooh, that's a good one.....do others put masks on me? So many ways to go.....and like Diane's comment, which are appropriate to disclose here on a blog rather than on a therapist's couch?